2021/08/04

 

Once upon a time I will be a person who lived on earth

long time ago. I have been a daughter, a mother, a grandmother

and a grandmother. They will talk and remember me, someone who

walked the earth for a very long time. They going to look at things

 i left behind, photo of me and, maybe they going to cry 

when they remember everything about me, who no longer live

 with them.  Know that I have a long life on earth.

My aura shows that!

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The time then and now just disappeared. Many times I have thought,

what kind of direction did it takes?  It was  somewhere along 

my life path, I just did not see it then. I may not either seen it in the

 same  way as today. I am older today compared to then

 and before that. Have been so many years to be in, why did 

they disappear so fast, maybe life was in a hurry to make my

 numbers just become more and more, today they have 

become many. I would have saved some so I could have 

them today. But i didn't.

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So far i had a pretty good life except for some less good events

in life I do not talk about or even anymore want to open that door.

Life is not a dance on roses, instead a dance on thorns to and from.

It has hurt terribly. It has at least taught me one thing, no painkillers

in the world, would have helped against that pain. Over time, you learn

to live with the pain of what the thorn causes. Life itself is not an easy

thing to deal with. We often make the same mistakes. What is it then we don't

understand by the first mistake? There is really no answer to that.

Hopefully we learn from our mistakes during our lives.

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I know just little about my last future, a little, no more. 

However I  know that I shall lived with the big love of my life, 

that is the most beautiful things in the whole wild world, 

and we are so happy with each other, and of course

we respect one another too, and so on.

💓
💓My beloved Adhamo! 💓

Thank you for finding us. 

He found us in a different way, and I am so happy for that. 

Adhamo is my everything, and I have told him so.

I've been waiting my whole life to meet someone like him. 

Everything I went through in my life and all that waiting

 was worth every minute, every hour, every year from

 then until now. 

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He's not home when I write this, it's a while until he 

comes home to me again. The wait is sad from time

 to time but, he takes every opportunity to talk to me

 if it's only five minutes, those minutes are worth 

everything to me, because it proves his love for me.

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I have written that I am both a grandmother (mormor)

and of course mother and grandmother (Farmor)

Someone might be wondering how old the photo

 on the header is. The photo was taken four years ago. 

 I look much younger than my numbers say. 

An explanation in case anyone wonders. 

©Erika Nejdelind